So far, however, that hasn't been the case.
In the times of hundred-dollar editing software and bucketloads of advertising, highly polished videos, and industry giants, this business just isn't set up for an intimate, one-on-one conversation like I prefer. I love to write, and doing something related to gaming is what I need to get into, but if I can't even pass 100 readers doing what I'm doing I'm probably destined for disaster. I really believe in what I'm doing and don't want to stop, but then again who am I making all of this content for? Myself? Hell no! I want to reach hundreds of people! I don't want to be a fraud! I want to be a great gaming related content producer. I've tried to apply to things like Machinima, but I'm not quite sure I'm what they want. I've been on Youtube a long time, but I think that what I'm doing right now requires high production values, which I just don't believe in. I want to be a self-made man, I don't want to require things that take away from getting my beliefs about games to the viewer and reader. I'm not sure the internet is ready for what I have to say... I'm not even sure if I am.
But I won't give up. I've spent hard-earned money doing what I'm doing, I'm not just doing this for a quick buck. I want this to be a go-to source for what I have to say, and what I have to say is well-thought-out and thought provoking and thoughtful in general. I want this to be a place of respect and sincerity, even though the game industry is filled with buzzwords and polish. I want this to be a raw website, I don't want it to seem paltry or fake or not 100% what I'm about. I'm beating around the bush here, but I seriously am doing this to share my views with the world. If I add anything that I don't want, then my purpose is flawed with giving up on my beliefs, which I believe detracts from my believability.
I don't know what to do, guys. I need to focus.